Like one in a million … trapped in a box
Fryday, 31 may, 23:10
I remember how it felt 9 months ago. Last day of summer. I would go to a new school, all by myself. And i was making myself believe everything would be okay. I actually prayed for a good day. Just like all the other i’m just a little person in a big world and just like all the other i had to go though this. No matter what.
i remember what i was trying to make me believe i could do this. Face my fears and go. But as soon i walked though school, all my hope was flowing away like a river in the dessert. By the time i went inside that room, oh god, my heart was just raccing out of my chest. But i have to convince. It wasn’t so bad at all. Once you put the thoughts away, everything will be alright. Maybe not so good as expected but … not so terrible as in you nightmares. I actually felt good. It’s just a luck, you know. Fate is not my friend, someday i’ll have to pay. Not me but the ones that i really love. Life isn’t going the way i want but i accepted my destiny. No matter who, when or how. Someday fate gets me down … again.
